A New Season

Wow. Have you ever looked back on a time in your life…a time where you thought you were happy. You thought things were the way you were wanting to live, and even though you thought you wanted to live that way…things just didn’t feel right…Only to come out of that season and think…Man, I was not happy.  There was a lot going on there. Those aren’t the things I wanted. That’s not how I wanted to live. I am coming out of one of those seasons.

I needed it though. Without trial, we don’t appreciate the things in life that we have. We don’t grow. We just stay right where we are. And sometimes, it’s ok to be content with where we are. And it’s also great to want more out of life. To do more. To be more.

I found myself waking up each day. Going to work. Picking up my kids. Coming home. Repeat. Day.After.Day. Sometimes, routine like that is great. That’s where you should be…but for me…I wasn’t living. I didn’t make time for myself. And it wore me down. I was doing for others…but not doing for myself. And we have to take care of ourselves before we can take care of others. (this is where I am always reminded of the flight attendant coming over the intercom, explaining that in case of emergency to place your breathing contraption on before you can help others.)

I found myself slowly depending on God more and more. He brought me to a point where I needed to depend on Him to live. He showed me that His love is what fills me up. That I can get my joy from Him.

And now, I feel like I am living more in the present. I look forward to living life. I have more joy. Some days I fall flat on my face. And my savior is there to pick me up. I’d rather it be some days…than most days. I’d rather depend on Jesus most days. I try for all days, but I’m human…

I’m glad to be back. I’m glad to be myself, again. I have a lot to say, a lot to share, and I’ve found my voice again. I can’t wait to walk this life with you!!

A new season has begun. 417614_10150596051541806_1618798859_n

Can I just end on one note. If you are reading this…and you don’t feel this way…know that you ARE loved. Whatever you are feeling like you are not…you are. Can I challenge you? Whatever you are feeling like you are not…will you go look at yourself in the mirror and say: I am ( fill in the blank with whatever you are thinking you are not)… I AM enough. I AM a good mom. I AM smart. I AM peaceful. I AM joyful. I AM loved. You ARE!

Giving God Control

Giving God control is one of the hardest things to do.

By human nature…we all want to have control over our circumstances in life.

Add any kind of anxiety…and multiply that by ten.

When I have a situation that I am hoping will change…it usually doesn’t happen as quickly as I would like. So, I get impatient. I start grasping at everything, and try to control the situation. And…9x out of 10...I only make matters worse.

I....

*just end up making myself more anxious..leaving no space for peace.

*causing problems in my relationships…often times, unaware that I’ve even done so.

* put my promises on hold.

This week, I had a light bulb moment.

As I was going through devotionals in my you version bible app, and towards the end of the week, I gave up a few things.

I’m no expert on fasting. In fact..I’m quite the novice.

But, I felt led to give up these things for certain periods of time during the end of the week.

And just today, I gained some clarity on something I was seeking wisdom for.

But first, I had to give up control. And that was extremely hard to do.

You have to go through your own journey with giving God control…but, I love to forward resources that have helped me.

In the comments, I’ll leave links to the Bible devotionals that I went through this week. I’m not really tech savvy, so if I can’t get it to work…I’ll post the names of the devotionals and the authors..and hopefully that’ll make it easier.

They are really great. I hope you are blessed by them.

30 Days of Thanksgiving: Days 9-26

This November has been the most oddly busy season. With our kids getting sick every couple of weeks, it’s been harder to focus on writing. That being said…I still want to share the things I’ve been grateful for during this season!

Day 9: My new devotional: Jesus Calling Family Devotional

Day 10: One of my favorite traditions is actually one of our weekly traditions. Friday is Donut for Breakfast and Pizza/Movie Night. It’s something we look forward to every week!

Day 11: Knife Throwing. Look it up!

Day 12: The actual color: purple.

Day 13: Summer. I look forward to summer hikes, swimming, and more free time.

Day 14: The crisp coolness of the fall air.

Day 15: My husband and kids- and the power of FaceTime.

Day 16: Good tacos!!

Day 17: Learning and training opportunities

Day 18: fun times with friends!

Day 19: I’m grateful to be home!

Day 20: Sleep. Allowing myself to rest and recoup when my body needs it.

Day 21: Early Travel Days!!

Day 22: My mom and dad!

Day 23: Being outdoors

Day 24: The sound of laughing kids!

Day 25: Time with family.

Day 26: Our Home.

Journey to 1/2 Marathon: 11/26

Well, since setting my goal for running a 1/2 Marathon in March. . . So far, I haven’t made any progress. I went running one day. For 3 minutes. I decided that I can.not. give up on myself.

The last time I proved to myself that I could do hard things was about 7 years ago.

Then, it was a mental obstacle. Once you get past the mental obstacle- your body can do hard things.

This time, I’ve been much more stagnant. I know that I can push past the mental obstacles of running, but now I’m worried about being able to overcome running long-distances, physically.

One thing I will say, is that I have been closing my rings more often. My jobs keeps me active. Now, I just need to add in cross-training and walking/running into my daily schedule.

30 Days of Thanksgiving: Days 3-7

Day 3: I’m grateful for the hard days. Showing up on the hard days, shows you what you’re made of, your areas of growth, and that you can do hard things

Day 4: I’m super thankful that my husband works from home. It’s made the transition from traveling full time to stationary life a little bit easier.

Day 5: I’m grateful for unexpected surprises that leave us feeling refreshed.

Day 6: For happy and healthy kids.

Day 7: My husband. He is funny. He’s creative. He works hard, and he listens.