Do you ever have days, and think back….What. Just.Happened?
Today was one of those days.
It started off ok.
Got a little better after church…
And then, went downhill from there.
I don’t even know what happened, except my anxiety kept growing worse and worse.
Every light and sound was over stimulating.
I even missed the mark.
Today, at church, the pastor talked a lot about grace and mercy…and, as I have been laying here, in bed…I read my devotional on YouVerse…and guess what, you guessed it. Giving mercy was the topic of discussion.
I wish that I had read it first thing this morning, though.
Because, even though the anxiety would have been there…maybe, I would have caught on quicker….decompressed quicker, and been able to give my family the grace and mercy quicker.
I’m going to miss the mark. There will be days that my anxiety will go downhill quicker than I can realize, until after its already said and done.
I’ve apologized, and as soon as I realized what was happening…I started the process of calming myself down, and changing my response. That’s all I can do, today.
Thankfully, tomorrow is a new day.
I can avoid as many triggers as I can. Use the tools in my toolbox….
And, we can all start over.
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